I hate lies and empty promises, seriously. And yet, you did both. Its impossible for me to chill and act like normal. Sorry, I really can't do it. Perhaps, I'm being naive again. Was trusting you too much and dependent on you without realizing sometimes promises are just some words spoken by you from your sweet lips, and that actually means nothing to you while I'm taking it bloody seriously. Yeah, you have the right to choose, I got nothing to say after you told me that you made this choice in the very early morning. Then, you promised something else, which I think, at least, you're promising me that you're not going to do the thing that I don't like. After listening to these, yeah, felt much more better, comfort myself that at least you respect me and prove that I'm actually important to you, even just for a little. Well, I respect you too, keep my sadness aside, back to normal.
After few hours, you told me something, I showed nothing in my face expression, cause I'm with my family that time, I couldn't just burst into tears in front of them, this is gonna freak them out and I don't want to. I stayed calm from the outside while my heart is bleeding inside. Within the 30 minutes time, I keep on thinking about what happened and what should I do now? I really can't figure it out, I felt like I'm no longer important to you, its just a simple thing but still you can't do as you promised just now, and the reason you gave is unacceptable. I can really tell you, to me, its bullshit. Have you ever think that this stupid, small thing that you're doing, or you might think that its just a short moment but its actually killing me, listening to the radio in car - Dr Dre I Need A Doctor.
I'm not sure whether I'm numb with it or what, maybe its not the first time? I just found that I don't feel sad anymore, right after I stopped crying. I've learned to be more strong? I don't know. Hope so. Anyway, I'll take this as a lesson or experience, but I promise myself to get rid of this unhappiness off my mind as soon as possible, and from now onwards, try my best to forget about it.
Went for dinner with family at Ho Ho Steamboat, feeling much more better. Foods were tasty, everything is fine, as usual.
SMILE with my heavy eye bags.
Nice shinny egg york, brother's favourite. : )
LOL, He's showing the OMG look with the york in his mouth.
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